Dark Flare

2 January 2010

2010-01-02T21:03:00.001+08:00

I HAVE SHIFTED.

dualdimensions.wordpress.com

RELINK PLEASE.

8 December 2009

2009-12-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

Long time no blog, it won't be a long post though. Probably changing to wordpress soon as according to my friend, it is pretty good. Will post the new address here asap.

3 August 2009

2009-08-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

My heart feels a little... weird.. A feeling i had not felt for a long time

4 July 2009

2009-07-04T00:33:00.002+08:00

I have been on hiatus from blogging for quite some time ler. Time to update a little. Let's see. Well, i spent my June holidays watching One piece, studying and going out a little. Had bbq with clique as usual during holidays. Spent most of my time with jaclyn, jackson and sunglee studying. And finally, one piece.

Well, there hasn't been anything significant about my life till recently, when my dad's friend left his Maltese in Singapore as he has to return to Germany permanently. The initial idea was that we will adopt the Maltese. It was a really active and fun dog as compared to my Chihuahua. Well, i really loved it and wanted to keep. The reason was because i can feel for it. I feel the dog's feelings when his owner left him. I feel that he needed a home and it is something maybe i can provide. It has been a wonderful one week. I endured the nights when he got too noisy and also spent time to take him down for a walk so that he will be too tired to make noise at night. However, 2 days ago, my dad told me that 1 HDB flat can only have 1 pet dog, not too. The noise level the dog is creating is too high. Neighbours will complain and town council might come and find us. At that point in time, i kind of expect my dad and mom to give the dog away. I couldn't do anything after all. Yesterday, on my way to Eileen's house to disturb her, my mom called and spoke to me about the situation and told me that we really have to give it away and she has already found an owner who will love him. I teared silently in the bus while my mom continue to speak. Before the phone call ended, my mom asked if i wish that she give the dog away before i arrive home. I really wish to say no. But i couldn't say anything but ok. Saying anything else will cause my to really tear more. Haiz. On my way home that day, i did something i never did. I prayed. Well, being a free thinker, it is something actually i will not do. But i did, for the dog. I pray for his happiness and apologise for my lack of ability to keep him. Till now, i do miss him.

Well, that's the only event that happened recently. Ok, i got to go and finish watching one piece b4 i can focus on my preparation for A levels. A few more months, i got to bear with it.

6 June 2009

2009-06-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

Man, i wonder if i still have the energy for a long post. Let's see. This whole week seems to revolve alot around band. In fact, i spend my whole week to spend the last moments as a tpjcsw member.

Wednesday - 3 June 2009
Panorama is here. After the tiring rehearsals, we are all finally at Esplanade as a band to play for the audience. Man, i must say, though it wasn't exciting, but it was one of my best performance.

Ok, we reported early in the morning for a total of 3 rehearsals if i didn't remember wrongly. It was tiring but fun at the same time. Many of the members took pictures while some emoed at some corner, some played bored games, and some sit at 1 corner playing laptop (and that would be me:)). We had great fun till the real show, and we walked in for the opening of Panorama 2009. Our song, Machu Picchu, was played and according to Mr Handsome Chiang, he said we sounded much better than "that" day. Well, it is good since we will be performing our best to the audience. My Tuba and i merged into 1 entity and swayed to the musc as much as possible. It was a really touching performance as whn i played the songs, thoughts of leaving the band and that it is probably my last time playing the song and MAYBE the tuba. I do feel like crying somehow but Mr Chiang's emotional conducting brought me back to reality and i told myself that i should not think about anything else but a good performance, and so did i. I put all my heart and soul into it and i believe it was a wonderful one.

We then went to back stage and camwhored alot and walked around. Time flies, soon, it was finale. We went up on stage to play "Our Shared Dreams" with the choir. It was really good and once again, it touched me. I guess that is my last playing with the tuba for a long time. When we returned to TPJC, Ikhsan placed my tuba all the way in and i asked why is that so. He answered it was for convenience and asked if it truly matters. Haiz, well, he is right. It doesn't matter anymore. Time for me to step down and bid my tuba farewell for i might never get a chance to feel and play it ever again.

Thursday - 4 June 2009
Well, our cool Student conductor, Jonnehs, called me early in the morning to settle food with him. So jackson, jolene, idy, jonnehs and i spent our day preparing food for the BBQ. It was really fun when me and jolene start fighting over the chores and that jackson was there to guide us and teach us how to do it since he is very experienced. We then had dinner at Botak Jones and had a long chat about many stuffs. Religions, band, exco, this and that.

Friday - 5 June 2009
Well, it is the band's bbq. Went down to jonnehs place with jackson and kenny to deal with food. As usual, Aaron Tng forgot to bring Otah for the bbq. We then cabbed down t my house to collect it and then to pasir ris park and got off at the wrong place, which caused us to cover a horrible amount of distance before arriving at the pit. We then played poker, captain's ball and then finally BBQ. Nelson, Bao ling, Chang yong and yogi joined us too as Alumni. haha. Wonderful seniors.It was a really fun day. Thanks to wei xing for helping me out that day. AFter the bbq, cabbed home with jackson and nelson.

Well, band has taken my week, and soon, on tue, it will mark the closing of band in my life. Finally? Maybe not. I don't actually look forward to that day. Oh wait!! Maybe i do look forward leaving exco, but not the band, just like how Jonnehs wanted it.

23 May 2009

2009-05-23T18:30:00.003+08:00

I got like 45 minutes for me to blog before meeting yongping for dinner and movie.

I went for Final Fantasy: Distant World concert with Acasius. It was wonderful. The performance. I feel that Nobuo Uematsu is pretty scary. He composed like all the songs in the FF series. Wonderful man who brought music in the lives of many. The concert brought back many childhood memories when i played the final fantasy. Wonderful stories with incerdible artwork.

As for today, went to the library with christine to study. I did quite abit of stuffs, so shall reward myself with a movie later.

19 May 2009

2009-05-19T20:33:00.003+08:00

I realised something. I am seriously starting to lose something that i relied on for years. "Luck". Aw man. How can i lose it? It is time to learn to depend on myself instead of Luck. Well, let's just hope i don't lose all my luck. Just a little will be fine.

"Panorama" is coming soon. I actually aint that excited. The event i ever looked forward to was SYF 2009. Panorama is actually some thing that i don't really care much. Still, as a musician, i will put up my best show for my audience. Jiayou Aaron, my last performance officially as part of TPJCSW

15 May 2009

2009-05-15T22:11:00.001+08:00

I just spent some time looking through the pictures Jiamin posted on facebook and those in the tpjc photobucket. Man, how i enjoyed those days when we were preparing for SYF.

10 May 2009

2009-05-10T19:55:00.002+08:00

Crap, i have been sick since the end of SYF. Is there such a logic that i am so sick now because i used up my energy for SYF and borrowed some from the future? Man, if there is, i am so regretful since this is not a good time for a weak immunity system.

I haven't been able to do my work at all. Been coughing like nobody's business and my temperature has been fluctuating between 37.2-38. Still, at least i am still productive. Manage to settle the band t-shirt on Friday though i am sick. Proud of myself.

I am hoping to feel better tomorrow to start working, yet sick enough to get an MC from the doctor to skip NAPFA on Tuesday since i am totally not prepared and i really don't wish to go NS early. Maybe at least finish up my reading log and EMI since it will be gone through this week. The rest, wait till i fully recovered. Also, let's hope my NAPFA will be postponed to July so that i can train for my weak areas in June and finally obtained a silver for NAPFA.

7 May 2009

2009-05-07T22:52:00.003+08:00

I am utterly disgusted by the actions of him, a hypocrite. I am so disappointed with myself as i believed every word he said to me. I thought he helped me, but he didn't. I finally gathered enough courage to ask my friends if he helped me. "No" was the answer i received. Thanks for not treating me like a friend, just like how i would treat you in future.

7 May 2009

2009-05-07T10:18:00.001+08:00

It is a consolation to know many enjoyed our performance yesterday. Many audience felt that we deserved something better. Well, we are just the unlucky ones eh.

http://sgbandfusion.com/index.php/topic,3072.0.html

Read it, and you will understand. I feel proud that TPJCSW delivered a wonderful performance.

In case you are wondering why am i blogging now, i am at home because i am sick. haha..

6 May 2009

2009-05-06T19:16:00.003+08:00

Today was the last day i will ever step into a concert hall and tell the world proudly,"I AM HERE TO PLAY FOR SYF CENTRAL JUDGING FOR CONCERT BANDS". It was a good ending to my life as a player working towards SYF. I guess i have no regrets as i tried it 3 times. I told Kenny in the bus,"The next time we go for SYF, we shall be there to judge!"

Anyway, after a day of playing, TAMPINES JUNIOR COLLEGE SYMPHONIC WINDS ACHIEVED SILVER IN SYF 2009 CENTRAL JUDGING FOR JC BANDS. Well, wasn't what we wanted, but still, it was a good performance. I am not sad or anything, maybe it is due to the fact i was prepared for the award. The disappointment wasn't there as ET pointed out. Hence, i am feeling quite neutral actually.

Well, this ends my band life for 6 years. I don't know if i still want to continue playing. Marcus told me to go down for Phil Youths as he hoped that i won't stop playing a Tuba. Still considering.

Life in band is wonderful! Wei Xing was right. I would have regretted it if i ever decided to join shooting. Music is my passion. Shooting is just something i liked suddenly because it sounded cool.

I once told a friend, i am not attached to the band. Now, i take back my words. I do have wonderful companions to walk the journey with me. Jackson, Hansley, Jeck Ann, Gek Teng, the Excos, the year ones etc... These are people whom i got closer with these few weeks while preparing for this competition. I was never satisfied with what i had, and i don't know how lucky am i to have such companions. Now i do. I love you guys man. Haha. Thanks, TPJCSW. I will miss my days as a TPJCSW member like how i missed being in Crestwinds, or maybe much more.

5 May 2009

2009-05-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

It's been long since i last blogged. Been too busy and lazy. As for today, i felt the urge to blog somehow.

Tomorrow is SYF Central Judging for JC Concert band. Honestly, i don't feel confident at all. I feel that the band is not led by anyone. Mr Chiang seems like a king trying to lead an army for war, without the help of his generals. I don't know how the band feel, but i feel that if someone stood up during band just now, anyone, i will feel much better. A speech of encouragement is fine. But nothing appeared.

I don't know the results for tomorrow, and i also don't wanna know. But, I know for sure, i will do my best. My good friend told me it is the process that matters, not the results. It was a tough and long process for me, yet a happy one. The band bonded even better during the period of preparing for SYF. Tomorrow, it has to be a good performance, one that wow the judges. I know TPJCSW can do it. I am very sure. I am hoping for the best tomorrow. Thanks to Acasius for the short msg, it was a good encouragement to me. And thanks to someone for the encouragement on the phone and helping me to sort my thoughts. I know you are very tired, yet you still talked to me. I feel very inconsiderate now. Haha. Sorry:D

Tomorrow shall be the day. I hope that the mood i brought to my blog the next to announce the results will be a good one. It shall be, i am sure.

10 April 2009

2009-04-10T02:15:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th birthday to yongping and gek teng.

Well. These days isnt too good. I got back my results for SA. It was some improvement, but not exactly good results.

GP-D
H1 Econs-C
H2 Maths-B
H2 Physics-B
H2 Chem-S

I also got back my PW result. Not exactly what i wished i got. I got a B for PW.

Today is a bad day. Didnt go really smoothly, as if i used up all my luck. Man. Got nothing done. Shopped for the whole day and had nothing bought. Damn sad.

I have this sudden feeling that i am not a good friend. I felt so helpless when i see my friends getting upset over certain things. I somehow can't provide the emotional support i though i could. In fact, i provided none. All i can do is use those stupid phrases like "hey, dun worry" etc. I feel useless somehow. I have failed in my studies, my character and i have no wish to fail as a friend. Haiz.

4 April 2009

2009-04-04T00:47:00.002+08:00

Haha, finally had time to update. Firstly, i would like to congratualate crestwinds on getting a silver. You guys put in those effort and hardwork, so you deserve this and also a good break from everything. Hope that Mr Leung can get Dr Ong to pay for your hk tickets. Haha. It has been a tough time for you guys and i feel guilty as a senior not being able to contribute much. Still, you guys did it. Haha.

Alright. THese few days have been fine for me. Got back SA results. It was decent as i made huge improvements but it is sitll not enough. Like what my friend said, i made improvement by working hard, now, it is time to work even harder to get my desired grades and i must work very hard so that my grades for SA2 will be up to standard and by prelims, i must be prepared for A levels. Haha. JiAYOU AARON!!

TPJC syf 2009 is coming. We are doing some pretty decent progress, at least for the brass under the teachings of the french horn tutor. A pretty mean guy, but he is a good teacher. Learned alot from him. Hope that Marcus' next trip to TPJC will not be wasted and hope he feels that we improved and can teach us how to achieve the next level in our pursue for music. Oh, and grats to NELSON, who gotinto SAF band. I knew you can do it. I shall work hard in honing my techniques and join you next year in SAF band, at least i hope that would happen. Haha.

27 March 2009

2009-03-27T09:52:00.002+08:00

I pretty upset now. My notebook officially broke down. Well, that's not the point. THe point is my mom refused to get me a new one. She said wanna wait till the broadband contract is over then wait for good deals. Argh, and that's like nxt year and i am going NS ler. What's the point. haiz, upset, but still gotta accept it.

27 March 2008

2009-03-27T00:48:00.004+08:00

Well, today has been great. Haha. Today marks the end of SA, which marks the beginning of working towards prelims (damn). Haha. Went shopping almost immediately after the paper. It has been a great trip. Hey sis, remember, end of year, we shall shop again:)

Haha. After that went to catch a movie. Watched Gran torino. It was a great movie. Unlike movies i watched previously, it has not much drama and action, instead, it reflects alot on the life of Americans. It was simply good. Been long since i caught a good movie and it truly touched me. Haha. Friends, trust me, watch the movie. Haha. It will be a good experience.

Haiz, well, gonna have band practice tomorrow till 9. Man, this is tiring. I need my sleep:( Haha

I feel that you are giving me a cold shoulder. I wonder why. . . Please, teach me how to communicate with you. I really wanna learn.

22 March 2009

2009-03-22T22:46:00.002+08:00

Well, finally had time to blog after a day of studying. Tomorrow is the start of SA. Everyone jiayou. Hope that we will all do well and work towards A levels:)

I just heard a nice song so thought that i should share with you guys. Haha

坏人-方炯镔
那一扇車門　關出我們的裂痕
一聲就震斷了回頭的路程
愛無法均分　以後就留給你們
也許用傷害結束　愛才更動人
容忍的人其實並不笨　只是寧可對自己殘忍
既然愛不能恆溫　祝福就給你下一個人

你是好人　也是個壞人對我坦誠　只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任　所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人　也是個壞人
分得夠狠　你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛　一點不剩
也不忍　看戀人愛成路人

容忍的人其實並不笨　只是寧可對自己殘忍
既然愛不能恆溫　祝福就給你下一個人

你是好人　也是個壞人
對我坦誠　只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任　所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人　也是個壞人
分得夠狠　你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛　一點不剩
也不忍　看戀人愛成路人

三個人從不對等　總有個人必須犧牲
那永恆　就等他帶你完成

你是好人　也是個壞人
對我坦誠　只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任　所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人　也是個壞人
分得夠狠　你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛　一點不剩
也不忍　看戀人愛成路人

寧願愛　一點不剩
也不忍　看戀人愛成路人

17 March 2009

2009-03-17T10:12:00.002+08:00

Haha, finally found time to update this rotting blog. Well, many things happened the past few days. Lemme just do a brief writing about them.

Well, last week was pretty fine. Oh, we had a presentation to the JC1 about our trips. But it wasnt a realli good presentation since Mr Ong decided to impose a ridiculously short time limit to each of us. What a fag. He totally didnt inform us beforehand about it. Many of my friends worked till wee hours just to make something nice to present and thanks to him, all those efforts are useless.

TPJC will also be having prom. Really wanted to form a table with the class, but seems like they are not very interested in it. So in the end, didnt go. But nvm, hope that i will end up having some sort of activities that day:)

Last sat, i headed down to NUS with Nixon and Acasius. Pretty fun trip, with a hell lot of retarded stuffs done like tying balloons to my bag and wearing NUS shirt AND SUANING ME-.- Haha. It was quite a fun day. Then went HK cafe for dinner and shopped abit at marina square before heading home.

Oh ya!! My father's friend came down on sunday to check out my computer since somehow after prsentation that day, it is spoilt!! VIRUS ATTACK!! wonder hu is the one that did such a cruel thing to me. ARGH!! $200 BLOWN ON IT!! OMG!!!

Yesterday was fine. Went to school early in the morning to do A level CHem SPA. I was lucky since what i studied came out. haha. Then went to mac for breakfast and Singpost to study. It was quite a fun study trip. Haha. Left halfway for a movie with the old band dude and my sis. Watched race to witch mountain. Aint too bad. Haha.

愛的就是你/王力宏
在愛的幸福國度妳就是我唯一
我唯一愛的就是妳我真的愛的就是妳

失去才會懂得珍惜但我珍惜妳
傷越痛就是愛越深我不相信
妳和我同時停止呼吸每一次我們靠近
妳讓我忘了困惑忘了所有煩心

我把妳緊緊擁入懷裡捧妳在我手心
誰叫我真的愛的就是妳
在愛的純淨世界妳就是我唯一
永遠永遠不要懷疑

我把妳當作我的空氣如此形影不離
我大聲說我愛的就是妳
在愛的幸福國度妳就是我唯一
我唯一愛的就是妳我真的愛的就是妳

失去才會懂得珍惜但我珍惜妳
傷越痛就是愛越深我不相信
妳和我同時停止呼吸每一次我們靠近
妳讓我忘了困惑忘了所有煩心

我把妳緊緊擁進懷裡捧妳在我手心
誰叫我真的愛的就是妳
在愛的純淨世界妳就是我唯一
永遠永遠不要懷疑

我把妳當作我的空氣如此形影不離
我大聲說我愛的就是妳
在愛的幸福國度妳就是我唯一
我唯一愛的就是妳我真的愛的就是妳
就是妳就是妳
就是妳唯一愛的就是妳

我把妳緊緊擁進懷裡捧妳在我手心
誰叫我真的愛的就是妳
在愛的純淨世界妳就是我唯一
永遠永遠不要懷疑

我把妳當作我的空氣如此形影不離
我大聲我愛的就是妳
在愛的幸福國度妳就是我唯一
我唯一愛的就是妳我真的愛的就是妳
我唯一愛的就是妳我真的愛的就是妳

愛的就是妳

《就是你》
你就是你对你从来就没有怀疑为了要遇见你
我用尽我所有的力气就是你就是你
除了爱自己我更爱你没有钻石华丽
却有独一无二的魅力
喜欢你的个性喜欢你的反应遇见你
不怕难题相信我自己答案就是你

6 March 2009

2009-03-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

Haha, it has been long since i updated. Ok, i had orientation camp. I took 09S21 in eagles which is a pretty cool class with a cool bunch of people. haha. I cant really talk about it since it has been quite some time. Also, we had band camp immediately the week after orientation camp. It was ok la. Unpleasant things occurred, but now i dont really care about it. School has been bad with Mrs Kum around. Irritating creature. Argh. Oh, and i had BBQ the night with the old clique. Haha. It was pretty fun. Chewy got tipsy!! Haha. But i miss the people there. Haha.

Alright, time to talk about today. Today was fine except for the fact that it is the release of A levels results. Haha. I got back my chinese results. It was fine i guess. Haha. Then went to the hall to watch our seniors collect their results. I saw tears of joy and sadness. I feel sad for some of my seniors. Still, JIA YOU!! Haha. Alright, i am tired now. nitex!!

18 February 2009

2009-02-18T10:00:00.000+08:00

Haha. I am blogging from the school library. Today is the start of prientation camp. This is going to be fun i hope. Haha. And, I SKIPPED KUM'S LESSON!! WOOHOOO. Lol. Just didnt liked her face. fugly.

10 February 2009

2009-02-10T22:10:00.003+08:00

Haiz, i feel like dying ler. So much homework and i am not completing them. Tomorrow still got OGL meeting, so have to skip band meeting. BUSY BUSY BUSY.

Sometimes i just dun understand what are you thinking. and you just throw yr tantrums at me just like that.

8 February 2009

2009-02-08T01:45:00.002+08:00

Man, totally shagged after a dinner at nelson's place. It was a good one and i hope for more of such events. haha

4 February 2009

2009-02-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

Man, i feel so sad. I finished my job as an OGL for OG 27 today. Haha. Well, hope to see them in the CG i am taking for orientation camp. I must admit, they are really well behaved and fun to be with. Really glad i got to know this few juniors. Nice people. As mentioned, i know the niece of my old friend. That added to my happiness even more. Haha. I know i will miss them. Hope to have an outing with them someday:D

Ok. Today was CCA day. It was quite ok. Wasnt that smooth. Pissed with some really irresposible people in band. Argh. The performance was abit screwed. But the good news is that we recruited 45 people. Man, that's a large number, though i expect permanent band members will only be about 20. Haha. Well, decent enough to go SYF anyway.

Looking at the pile of work left undone, i feel like i am going to die soon. I am already scoring so badly and i am still so lazy. BOOHOO. LOL. shall work hard hopefully. :D

3 February 2009

2009-02-03T20:34:00.002+08:00

Man, i must admit the world is really small. I never guessed that i will meet an old friend of mine ever again. He is one of my closest friends in primary school. Actually, i really didnt meet him ever again. However, i met his niece instead. She is one of my OGM. I can't describe my joy now. Haha.

These few days were smooth. I dare not say i have the best OGM, but they were still nice people. I am really glad to have them. Haha. The guys were nice people, and the girls were abit too shy. Haha. Hope they can get along.

Today had Chem SPA trial. It was fine. I manage to retrieve all the infomation i memorised before the real thing. Haha. Really glad i can remember. Anyway, today is the last day spent with the OGM, hope to see them often in the college in future.

1 February 2008

2009-02-01T00:54:00.001+08:00

Man, i am soo looking forward to the new JC 1. Going to be OGL on monday. Wonder what will happen and how well i will work with my partner. Let's just hope it will be a smooth one, well, i also don't really mind to have some problems with my partner. Lol. It will be fun.

I spent the day in national library studying. Then saw yan ting and studied with her. Haha. I am soo tired. Honestly,i accomplished very little. Oh ya, thanks melissa for that GP book:D thanks alot. haha.

30 January 2008

2009-01-30T20:24:00.001+08:00

AHH!! iam soooo busy. Homework is flooding like mad. ARGH.

These few days are fine i guess. Just had a fever. Recovering ler. Today is Posting day. Grats to those that got into their desired school. And i am OGL for the new JC 1. WOOHOO. Just felt abit sad that didnt get the chance to work with acasius. But still, hope we will get to choose. Haha.

25 January 2008

2009-01-25T01:06:00.002+08:00

Phew, this is a pretty late night post.

School is great. It was better than expected. Though i rally miss this certain guy from my class. Haiz. Dude, good luck this year and rmb to thrash the J1 in the coming roadrun. You can do it. You better pray that a second PP wun come and thrash you. haha

Today spent half the day slacking at home. Man, i am feeling really guilty for not doing my work. Haiz. Then spent the next half at the gym and movie with gek teng. Watched love matters. Was looking forward to seeing heok tao in this movie. In the end, i see his name at the credits, but not his face. -.-".

Ok. Tmr is reunion dinner then i am free. Movie and Kbox date with claudia and dzing on tuesday. Then had to finish econs with clarence. haha. Busy man.

14 January 2009

2009-01-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

Seriously, this time, probably for the first time, i am going to screw maths up. AHHHHHH!

12 January 2009

2009-01-12T22:55:00.002+08:00

I kept forgetting i am in the year 2009 ler. Today, i wrote "12 jan 2008" on my GP topical test paper. ARGH! Anyway, today sucks. I screwed my GP and econs totally. But the day was much better after i met melissa for some econs lessons by her. Haha. Thanks girl, u so totally rock!

Tomorrow is chemistry paper, and i am not prepared at all. Haiz. Well, i shall make an effort to study tmr morning, though i doubt anything decent can get into my thick skull.

10 January 2008

2009-01-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

I shall start of the post with a quiz by selina.

10 things you might not know about me

1) I was actually underweight when i was primary 3
2) I failed my GRADE 1 ABRSM practical for violin -.-"
3) I like to look for trouble, though trouble usually finds me first
4) I actually sleep in class all the time in secondary school and achieve pretty decent results
5) I got beaten up once because that person thought that i called him gay -.-"
6) I SUCK AT DOTA
7) My blogskin WAS NEVER EVER FOUND BY ME. It was either done by my friends or my friends found it for me
8) I lost my watch all the time, with each $200 and above.
9) I learned taekwondo from primary 2 to mid sec 4
10) I wear spectacles

I am suppose to tag 10 people to this thingy. But i think i should be kind and not bother people over these type of things(actually, i am just being lazy). So thank me:)

Ok. Yesterday went out with jackson, joel, jaclyn and gek teng to simei to "STUDY". Well, i did quite abit of inequalities and then died out. The rest also. Haha. Then went 18 chef to have baked rice. Then jackson and i accompanied gek teng to pasar malam to get her food -.-"

Today is PRCS CCA openhouse. Met rachelle and malique to visit the band. They really did improve. Haha. Then chat with mr azzar awhile before walking around. Went to see the choir and saw 1 tomato there. Lol. TOMATO IS SINGING. Haha. Then walked around and say cheryl. She beat me :( Evil lei u!!! Lol. Joking. I know you are a nice person. Then took fadzil's tuba to play. Played with rachelle and nizam machu pichu. Actually only a small portion of it la. Haha. And tomato, wads wrong with me playing that instrument? you and eunice have any comments on it?!?!?! It is a very pretty and awesome instrument K!! I then had my hair cut. This time cut quite short. Haiz. Lol. Ok. Shall blog other day.

1 January 2009

2009-01-01T03:25:00.003+08:00

2009 is finally here. Since the new year is here, time for my new year resolution.

For this year, i wanna....
1) Give up gaming totally and focus on studies
2) Priortise my studies over EVERYTHING
3) Do well for prelims and a levels
4) and finally, enjoy my after A levels life.

I know those resolutions are pretty crappy, and revolves around studies. But i guess studies is what matters most. I wanted to hope this year to be a better one, but it seems abit impossible, so i shall just endure my JC life, leave the school and celebrate.

Ok. As the year of 2008 passes, there are people who i wish to thank.
1)Wei Xing
Forever dude. Forever. You are always in this list. This is due to the reason you are really the best friend i ever had. Thanks dude.

2)Acasius
I really learnt alot from you. Though our friendship is full of problems, i really enjoyed being friends with you. You taught me alot and advice me alot. Thanks girl.

3) Gek teng
Suppers are always great with you around. Thanks for being with me when i need someone there. Haha. You rocks!!!

4) The bastards (Yh, RX and YP)
Well, i cant thank you guys enough for being there when i am alone. Though you are a bunch of bastards, i still love you guys. Thanks

5) Clarissa
Haha. I really don't know what to say about. you left me speechless. Still, i treasure the friendship between us. Thanks for being such a brillient friend.

6) Fiona
How should i put this. You are a pillar of support for me. Haha. After sitting near each other in class for 2 years, it feels strange without talking to you. Thanks for everything you have done fir me, especially giving a great new year's eve. I hope you will do really well as you proceed to the new journey. I wish you all the best. Keep in touch girl, as i will miss the "HI" from you in school.

This year is the most horrible year i had, but also the year i learnt most, about people and characters. I don't know how others feel about this, but i really think my thinking changed alot. Wonder if i really did became more mature or what. Still, i really hoped i m more mature. Haha. WHO DOESNT!!!

Ok. After talking about craps not many people wants to read, time to talk about just now. OH YA!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIN KIAT, OUR 10 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP IS STILL GOING STRONG!!!

Ok. Went for BBQ with qi rong, fiona, chewy and huda. Chin kiat and wen ying joined us shortly after we started. It was an experience as we bbq in GRASS, NOT PIT!! It was a last minute decision to go bbq as we were all left out for countdown and decided to meet up. So, NO PITS FOR US :(. Still, the girls came up with the idea of bbq-ing on grass. It was troublesome, but fun. Haha. At the end, i got abit tipsy thanks to fiona's vodka and kiat's carlsberg. We then wrote some craps on a piece of paper and placed it inside the empty carlsberg bottle and threw it out, but it flowed back. SAD! Took many pictures, all with the girls. Haha. Then sent fiona home with chin kiat and had a short chat wif kiat before heading home. I am soo tired now. Haiz.

Still, HAPPY 2009 PEOPLE! Hope you enjoyed 2008 and will enjoy 2009 :)

27 December 2008

2008-12-27T00:20:00.003+08:00

Oh man. I am still into the christmas mood. Kept on humming jingle bell rock. Haha.

Today, our nice president, Ikhsan, decided to open the band room :) So went to band room, and saw joel, jackson, jaclyn and michelle. Michelle left shortly after that. Ikhsan left too for prayers. You know, once the boss is gone, TIME TO WREAK HAVOC!!!! We pulled out scores to play for fun. All types of scores, but in the end, ALL WERE TOO TOUGH FOR US. AWWW MAN!!! Then jackson decided to go online to search for scores. We found quite a few and played them. We then found out that THEY ARE MUCH TOUGHER THAN THOSE WE PULLED FROM THE LIBRARY!!! AWW MAN. So ended up playing machu picchu and then listening to songs. If you noticed, the remaining players can form a brass quintet perfectly. Our trumpeteer, JACKSON!! Then, our frech horn girl, JACLYN!! THen trombone boy, JOEL! FInally, the bass dude, ME!!! Together, we form the SINGAPORE BRASS!! Haha. We so totally copied the Canadian Brass. Haha.

Then headed to pasta mania with them to have our lunch cum dinner and then headed to Yamaha. Musicians are just like that. They spend like god knows how long in music shops like we did. Lol.

26 December 2008

2008-12-26T00:22:00.006+08:00

Christmas ended well. As well as my birthday. Thanks to those who gave me present for christmas and my birthday :)

Today went to watch some drama thingy. It is indeed really interesting. Then went to look at Guitars for joses and then POOL! Reached home really late. Phew. Tired.

Phil youths concert was great. haha. Marcus, you played really well. So dun worry. Haha.

I really loved the time spent with you today. Thanks girl. ILU

21 December 2008

2008-12-21T12:40:00.001+08:00

AHHH!! IT IS ONLY A DREAM!!! WEI XING!!! HOW HOW!! HOW COME GOT SUCH A DREAM DE!!!!! i PREFER IT REAL!!! NOW THAT I DREAMT OF IT, HARD TO BE REAL LER!! WEI XING!! HELP ME :(

19 December 2008

2008-12-19T22:37:00.002+08:00

Band fest ended, which means, study fest started. ARGH! Calls from tuition teachers and asking me to go down.

Had tuition in the morning. Was dozing off. Tired. Then went for lunch wif Phileas. We had a really good chat. Then went white sands to walk around. Surprising, i saw claudia with her friend. So went with her to PRCS to visit the school band. Well, the band doesnt seemed to be in a very good condition. HAIZ! Then chat with kenneth and Mr Azzar. After that, took the tuba section out for sectionals. Well, spent quite some time correcting things and taught them things i learnt from Marcus. Then went bubbling with heman, ade and shifu and HOME!!

Tomorrow gonna start with tuition. ARGH!! IRRITATING. I AM SOOOO TIRED!!

Oh ya, Phil youth is performing on the 23rd!! WOOHOO!! Handsome, conduct properly and Marcus, GOOD LUCK!!!!

Thanks Kendrick and the rest for the super early birthday present. Haha.

19 December 2008

2008-12-19T00:36:00.002+08:00

It is tiring these few days and i am proud to say, " BAND FEST IS FINALLY OVER!!!"

I cant believe how much time and effort the tpjc band put into this event. and the response was like WOW!! Thanks to those that came to watch me perform. I am really glad to have you guys there.

The performace was pretty ok. LEts see. The first song "Brian's holiday" is pretty good. But the second one, "Machu Pichu" was bad for me. I screwed my part. BOOHOO!! The third one," Pantomime" was fine but didnt end off really well. THe last 2 pieces was ok. Haha. Oh, and the rest of the schools did a really good job. Haha. Well, since band fest has come to a halt, time to focus on things that i have to finish. Looking at my homework, the sian look. Haiz.

18 November 2008

2008-11-18T18:51:00.002+08:00

I know it is a pretty long time before i posted. Laziness won the fight against me. So too bad. And when i finally decided to post, i am LEAVING :)

Shall be boarding my plane in about 13 hours time. Going hong kong with the school band. So people, CYA!!

9 November 2008

2008-11-09T01:32:00.002+08:00

Today is pretty interesting. Went with Acasius to watch a recital. It was really good for $6 only. Haha. The violinist, Alexander Souptel, was pretty good. His skills is what a good violinist should have, but he made people enjoyed his performance. That was why i admire him for today. He shall be my idol. Haha.

Ok. Then had dinner cum supper at cartel in Raffles city. Was ok la. Then had dad to fetch me home.

I guess I have been playing the disney classics too much in band as we are preparing for the HK trip and performance in HK disney land. I am now addicted to some of the songs. i just found my personal favourite since young. Listen to it. It is my current blog song.

6 November 2008

2008-11-06T00:31:00.003+08:00

I shall start this post by saying some things.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI XING

This is pretty much a must. A birthday wish for my best friend. Thanks for being there for me when i need you. Though you are pretty stupid and dumb, and do too many retarded things, you are still my one and only best friend. If you need a confirmation again, YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY BEST FRIEND!!! Thanks alot dude and have a nice day later :)

That was damn gay. Haha. Anyway, PW ended officially, with our OP. It was pretty well done. Then had band, then went for steamboat with the guys as celebration for our END OF PW and PETER'S TERRIBLE END TO HIS SINGLEHOOD :)

Tomorrow is judgement day. Good luck.

5 November 2008

2008-11-05T00:01:00.001+08:00

I am really very very tired. Had little sleep for the past few days as i have been out. Going to have a good sleep tonight.

Went to school for reheasals as usual. Then went to PRCS band for a visit. It is ok la. THen went to meet clar yeo and gek teng for dinner at Fish and Co. Horribly full.

THese few days seems horrible. THe funny thing is that NOTHING HAPPENED and I AM IN A BAD MOOD. ARGH. I think i am going crazy. Haha. Ok. Nitex people. Tomorrow is my OP, wish me luck (:

2 November 2008

2008-11-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

Today when dad's hotel with acasius' group members to prepare for OP. Was fun, besides the fact i was busy sleeping and acasius thrashing us at ICON. Damn. I must revaluate my gaming skills ler.

Then went with clar and acasius to billy bombers for dinner. then went to parkway parade, where peter joined us for pool.

I had a long day today. Thought about many things. Pretty depressing. I am so flawed as a human. time to learn and improve. Like what my friend said, the first step is to be aware of once ignorance. Am i growing, or am i not? Where do i stand?

the only thing constant in life is change

1 November 2008

2008-11-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDIA CHEN
Well, Chinese A level paper ended with a BANG. Pretty stable i hope.

Today went to school to do nothing. THen went with rong xuan to the gym. Saw kendrick before i left. OMG, he is now more handsome ler. I am not gay :)

Then went to school for band. Finally, went for a bbq party at claudia's condo. I got lost. Haha. Pretty gd party. Haha.

29 October 2008

2008-10-29T21:36:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is Chinese A level examination. THe good news is, one subject down tomorrow. The bad news is, i am TOTALLY NOT PREPARED.

Anyway, today went to school and did almost nothing. Played neopets, my current love thanks to kevin ng, then chiong dota. waited for ying hao for awhile before heading to Popeye at the airport (and there is 1 mountain tortoise who doesn't know what is it...). Chatted awhile before heading to TM sistic to buy tickets to "From Russia with Love". Once i reached home, i played dota and neopets till now. Now you see, how prepared i m for chinese tomorrow. Moreover, i have NEVER EVER paid attention in chinese. Been playing psp, nds and reading books for chinese. Kind of regret it now, feel so bad. Still, tomorrow is the paper. WOOHOO.

Tomorrow is pretty busy. After the paper, shall waste 2 hours of my life and then head to NUS for a lecture by some professor. Then will go with ikhsan to settle band tee and finally, shopping :)

28 October 2008

2008-10-28T23:06:00.004+08:00

A friend of mine got my thinking about some stuffs today. At the end of my jouney, how many friends will i be left with? I am worried for my future, worried i will have too little true friends.

Today i went lavender. On the way, i was thinking, if i were to ask my friends to accompany me there, how many will be willing. 1? or 2? i doubt it will be anymore. I suddenly think that all the brother brother i have been talking about, are all a facade. On a superficial level, we are brothers, however, after looking more deeply, we are brothers in name only. This life, i so far have identified 3 brothers willing to walk down my jouney with me. 1 is my blood brother, as in the real one. The other are my friends, or i shall say my true friends. It is pretty pathetic as after 17 years of my life, my only assets are 2 brothers, 1 family. As for the rest, it feels redundant now after thinking. That 2 brothers are people who i fight with, play with and talk to. They are the one who will accompany to JB if i ever say i wish to go there. It is very funny now that i think of it. I call people hypocrite, aint i one myself? i call them brothers, yet i dun treat them like one, and vice versa. A friend of mine loves to be alone, or love silence. I always didnt understand why. In fact, i got pissed of with him/her/it a couple of times due to the awkward silence between us. Now i understand. Maybe it is different for everyone, yet i need silence to think, think about alot of things. My journey to lavender today is a time for me to think. Well, now i understand. Hey friend. Sorry for being so childish in the past which strained our friendship. Lets forget everything in the past, INCLUDING WHAT I OWE YOU!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH...

After that, i went to crestwinds for a visit. Well, nice attendance, but horrible music. Then went with malique, rachelle and joleen to central for bubbling. Pretty farmiliar session. Haha.

I would like to dedicate this song to one friend of mine. Shall not say who. You know who you are. Haha.

天高地厚 - 信樂團

你累了沒有　可否伸出雙手
想擁抱　怎能握著拳頭
我們還有很多夢沒做
還有很多明天要走
要讓世界聽見我們的歌

準備好沒有　時間不再回頭
想要飛　不必任何理由
不管世界盡頭多寂寞
你的身邊一定有我
我們說過不管天高地厚

想飛到　那最高最遠最灑脫
想擁抱　在最美麗的那一刻
想看見　陪我到最後誰是朋友
你是我最期待的那一個

你累了沒有　可否伸出雙手
想擁抱　怎能握著拳頭
我們還有很多夢沒做
還有很多明天要走
要讓世界聽見我們的歌

準備好沒有　時間不再回頭
想要飛　不必任何理由
不管世界盡頭多寂寞
你的身邊一定有我
我們說過不管天高地厚

想飛到　那最高最遠最灑脫
想擁抱　在最美麗的那一刻
想看見　陪我到最後誰是朋友
你是我最期待的那一個

可以一起闖禍　一起沈默　一起走
可以一起飛翔　一起淪落
不管天高地厚陪著我
陪我一起大聲狂吼

想飆到　那最高最遠最遼闊
想唱完　那最感動的一首歌
沒看見　那天高地厚不肯放手
因為我有我想要的朋友
你是我最想要的朋友

I know you don't listen to chinese songs much, but try this. Not a nice song, but a love the lyrics. Maybe because it describes my mood at this point in time. Haha

27 October 2008

2008-10-27T01:12:00.002+08:00

AHHH! I AM SOOOO TIRED!!

Yesterday went to roxy sq wif peter, rx n yp for steamboat. On the way, saw gazuak. haha. Then went for the steamboat. Pretty ok. Just that the price is abit steep. We were so full that we can't really walk or stand straight. Made our way to the bus stop where we meet eileen. That girl forget to bring her house keys and her mom is out. So we decided to pei her lor. Then after rx n yp left, peter n i walked her to her condo, where my dad is waiting. Haha.

Today is pretty tiring. Went queensway with peter and rx. After a hell lot of walking, rx bought his ANTA shoes, i bought a FBT shirt, a diadora i tink shorts and a hockey grip for acasius. Then head to paya lebar for dinner. Pretty ok, just abit salty. haha. Then head home.

These few days can be described as fun. However, the tough times are coming. Tue and Wed are stupid days where i do practically nothing. Thurs is MT A level exam. Fri is another bo liao day. haiz. still got to settle band t-shirt. Argh, busy busy busy. Luckily i have this nice friend to pei me. Thanks dude. haha.

24 October 2008

2008-10-24T23:15:00.002+08:00

http://www.livescience.com/health/081022-erased-memories.html

Read this article. Pretty cool. It is about erasing memories. Scientist think it is good as it removes painful memories like war and those type of crap. Somehow, i feel that scientist kind of look at the benefits at a very superficial level. Doesn't memories shape our lives? I mean, if u remove all the bad things, there will not anymore good things. What are good things? They are those better than bad. Yet, if there is no bad, is it still good? somehow very contradicting. I mean i understand what m i saying la. But not sure if u all can understand since i have horrible english. Still, destroying memories is a bad thing in my opinion.

24 October 2008

2008-10-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

Today is OP dry run. It went pretty well, except i spoke TOO FAST. haiz. That's pretty much a problem.

These few days are stupid. I have been doing nothing in school but practising OP. TOTALLY RETARDED+UNPRODUCTIVE.

On the other hand, busy with band stuffs. I know i shouldnt be complaining as there are alot of people that are MUCH busier than me. I know of a friend who is the leader of her group, her overseas trip and alot of things. My god. My friend, you must really teach me how you survived.

Band T-shirt would be out soon hopefully. I guess my mood would have been much better if many more people cooperate. Haiz, just in a bad mood. I just can't believe some people's way of doing things. So a long time + good friend is nothing compared to yr Chinese? FUCK IT!!! Many might disagree with me, especially in this society, our results IS INDEED EVERYTHING. However, i always thought friends are important as well. Maybe it is just difference in opinion. Still, i just can't believe what happened 10 mins ago. It totally shocked me. Totally. Maybe i just don't understand u anymore.

16 October 2008

2008-10-16T21:59:00.001+08:00

Stayed back in school till 7 plus for PW. LONG DAY!! Tiring man, still, pretty fun process. WR seems pretty much complete. Submission is soon, so hope my group members can JIA YOU!!! haha

13 October 2008

2008-10-13T22:58:00.002+08:00

This is my 200th post. I doubt i can post much since i still have PW to do, still, i shall make an effort to write a few things.

Today had PE, played frisbee which was err, ok. Then went to take a bath before physics and chem. Then had physics lecture which was the time i felt like killing eileen. Her bad karma is now at 12 pails whereas i am still at 3. MUAHAHAHAH. Then had those bo liao lessons. Todya had abit of consultation and then some discussion before i make my way to library to study. Quite unproductive as i kept talking since i didnt talk to this friend of mine for quite some time ler. Then headed to mac where we discuss certain thing.

Tomorrow shall not go to school since i felt lazy and tomorrow has practically nothing for me. So, shall skip school together with rx and yp. But shall return for PW in the evening.

Well, i was thinking of certain bo liao things. Currently, i have a few friends who were always there for me when i need them, esp wei xing. However, i really hope for someone to be there for me no matter what. It is different. Still, i guess these few days has got me thinking alot. Yet, such stuffs that i thought of can't be shared with just anyone. Well, A levels is coming, i cant be thinking of such stuffs. My first goal from next year is to achieve a rank points of 70 for the diagnostic test next year. I shall mug, since i am not that smart to not study but score straight A's(which i thought i was). Haha. Seems like i have to work for that. JYJY!!

12 October 2008

2008-10-12T20:43:00.002+08:00

Just came back from a haircut. Today was pretty unproductive. I did practically nothing. Which is not a very good sign.

Yesterday had some class gathering. Met yp at tm where he had a haircut. Then had lunch and headed to parkway for pool with geraldine, peter and clarence. Pretty relaxing. Then walked around with yp while waiting for dad and gave him a lift. Had a good talk with him.

Then went for a haircut today at tm. Quite satified. Now abit shorter ler. OH! When the hair stylist was cutting my hair, he mentioned that i have alot of hair. Haha. That brought back memories. Last year, when i was in cambodia, we stayed at the hotel for the last 2-3 days. I shared a room with 2 friends. Haha, it was pretty funny. This friend of mine rushed into the toilet to clear his crap as he did not do that for the past few days. Then it was my turn and lastly my last friend's turn. I remembered when i was putting wax on my hair, i asked one of them of advice over hair. Then he helped me and was complaining "bloody hell, how come u got so much hair de!!" haha. It was pretty retarded now that i thought about it. well, these sweet memories are a thing of the past. Hope to see him soon, and i know i will. haha..

4 October 2008

2008-10-04T22:57:00.002+08:00

Well, saw the overall result slips ler. Horrible results. Rank points only 48. Well, it is an improvement from 40 to 48, but stll horrible. It is nowhere near NTU accountancy basic requirements. I am going to work for 70 the next time. AARON SHALL NOW BE A FULL TIME MUGGER!!! MUAHAHAHAHAH!!

I was really unhappy yesterday. Today was much better since the problems are all solved. Ok, i shall now give some credits to someone.

To that someone (you know who you are). Though you are horrible, dominant, stubborn and dumb, still, you are a nice person. Though there is only a small improvement in my results, i am really grateful to you as in the past, you helped me in studies, both dirently and indirectly. We had a huge quarrel with totally destroyed the friendship and brotherhood between us, which was pretty sad. Till now, it might now have been recovered totally, but at least, we are still good friends. Haha. Thanks for asking if i am alright. I am alright now. Your care and concern for me have made my day much brighter. Well, i once promised i will be there if you need me, and that still holds. For all the care and concern you provided me, i shall provide mine when you need it. Thanks alot, BRO. and dun remind me about the presents!!! AHHHHHH!!!!

Haha, that's one paragraph dedicated to this friend of mine. That's all for today! CIAO!

4 October 2008

2008-10-04T00:04:00.002+08:00

I always thought i am very lucky to be in a complete family, a family with conflicts, yet solved easily. This week, a series events happened. I am somehow the middle party. Screw it up, there goes the marriage between my mom and dad. I just feel pretty upset over this. haiz. Sorry. Not in the mood to continue ler. other day ba.

2 October 2008

2008-10-02T20:35:00.002+08:00

Well, back to school for today. Stupid rongxuan skip school. Morning was cool since we saw a very cool and heartwarming image. haha. A handsome young boy was giving a violent girl a soft toy as birthday present. haha. that was nice. CLASSIC!

Had chinese. Did some stupid test and chatted with JJ abit. Then had PE and screwed soccer badly. Haiz. Then took a bath. Had some stupid chem lecture and chatted with Fiona during the lecture. Then break. Went bubbling with peter, yinghao and yongping. Then GP. Well, we did well for our group discussion. Haha. Wonderful combo.

Some idiot ask me to be a volunteer at SPCA. Should i? sounds like a cool idea. Well, she said i should go to Neutralise my bad karma. WTH! i am a damn nice guy k!! ARGH! what kind of impression am i leaving my friends with. Don't look to good.

1 October 2008

2008-10-01T19:57:00.002+08:00

Well, just returned home from a movie with dylan and yongping. Watched Eagle's eye. Pretty ok. It is just that the seat had some problems. Stupid yongping purchased the ticket with seats 4 rows FROM the screen. Damn. Had a horrible neck problem throughout. After the movie, butt problem. Dylan and yongping seems to have the same problem too. SAD.

These few days are days i have to treasure. I am really going to miss people who might get retain. Haiz. Well, got to get on with life too. Moreover, my results are horrible and this simply shows that i shouldn't be wasting time worrying about others. I have myself to worry about.

Went to TIMES bookstore the other day. WOOHOO! The 3rd book of the trilogy is out. Eragon book 3. Can't really remember the name, but still. I am so going to get that book soon. But not cheap. Damn. Financial shortage. I am spending too much, and saving too little. BOOHOO! Ok. ciao

29 September 2008

2008-09-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

Well, this post shall be 2 mins long since it is 2 mins to 12 am which is the birthday of a good friend of mine.

Well, today is ok la. Tomorrow is going to be quite bad as tears will be seen in the morning and farewells will be said too. haiz.

Ok. It is time.

HAPPY BITHDAY ACASIUS. I DIDNT FORGET, DID I?

28 September 2008

2008-09-28T18:55:00.002+08:00

haha. That was a long break from blogging i had. haha.

Got back results. Nothing to be proud. Did badly for EVERY SINGLE CRAP. haiz. It was uncalled for but still, kind of deserving. Shall not talk anymore about unhappy stuffs.

I have been playing harvest moon these few days. Addicted to it. haha. Now that promos are over, now i am left with PW and A level Chinese. PW is pretty horrible considering the speed mr ho is marking our WR which is not a very good sign. As for chinese, ah ya. Can pass. WHO THE HELL FAILS CHINESE! lol. that was what rong xuan and yong ping said when yinghao got U. haha.

Well, these few days, i have been using the excess timing to play games and think. haha. Haven't had such time for thinking for ages. Well, time to think carefully and soon plan my next move. Haha. so, cya!!

20 September 2008

2008-09-20T23:14:00.002+08:00

Well, today is a pretty slack day for me. I played FFIV the whole day. haha. so dumb. i still got GP hw to deal with and also other tutorials that is going to be gone through very soon. I need to return to the JC mood again! lol.

Oh! A message to idiots out there who loves to spam my tagboard with names of my friends. Just stop being lame. I will simply delete your message and ban you. So don't waste your time. Changing IP is easy, but no point doing it just to make me angry for i will not be affected too badly by it.

19 September 2008

2008-09-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

Guess i shall do abit of a long post since i am free now and the hectic life will be coming back soon.

This year, i am officially JC1 student and entered tpjc. TPJC. It is seriously a horrible school. I told my close ones not to think so much and accept their fate here, yet in the beginning, i felt like shit. Maybe it was because i thought that with my intelligence, i will do alot better for o levels, yet it does not seem to be the case.

I met my cool classmates. Some idiots, some retards and some bastards. haha. The bastards are my closest friends in my class. Retards, well, i don't mix with them much. As for idiots, nice people. Haha. I made one of the greatest friend in my life, besides wei xing. Yet, my attitude and personality spoilt many memories, bittersweet memories. Well, it is all over.

When i took my mid years, i didn't study. I thought i would have scrap through just like how i did previously. Yet, i didn't. I top the clas for maths, which is something i am really proud of, yet the rest was horrible. Those results would have gotten me retained. Well. From then, i started working. A friend kept calling me mugger, yet i denied i was one. Well, i am indulging in self denial yea? Well, i did work for promos, which is also kind of mugging i guess. Haha.

When i lost a friend, i seek for friends a neglected long ago for company. At first, i was upset as i couldn't blend in well with them. I felt kind of left out. Yet, these brothers treated me like one of them soon. I grew closer to them day by day till they became a need for me to survive JC. They are the friends that made me feel tpjc aint that bad afterall.

Well, promos was arriving and i started studying. That was the most boring part of my life. How i wished it was over. Once it was over, i could see fear within many of my friends. The fear of getting retained. Well, i have that fear within me too. But still, the lively them was dead at times when they thought about retaining. Haiz.

I once complained so much about life, tpjc and friends. Yet, i learnt that all the problems start from me. No one created the problem, i did. This is a good thing, yet it is a bad thing too. haiz.

Well, school gonna begin on monday. I fear for the tears i am going to see. Yet, i got to face it this time. JIAYOU AARON, AND MY BROTHERS!

16 September 2008

2008-09-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

Well, pretty cool day as promos ended and I am pretty free from stress. Met Yong ping and Dylan in the morning for a swim. Dylan was VERY late. Then swim abit. Well, seems like my stamina don't suck that much afterall, since both Dylan and Yong Ping was VERY tired after a lap. Then Yong Ping and I went up to the deck to "TAN" our bodies. I asked him "Shouldn't we be using some lotion for it" He replied don't need. I went up about 5 minutes and went back down ler. It was seriously too hot. Yong Ping endured. Then swim a few laps and chatted with Dylan abit till RED RED YONG PING comes down. Dylan and I was laughing like hell. Then we played abit, swim abit and left. Went TM to get some stuffs before heading home. Took a short nap before meeting Ying Hao, Yong Ping, Rong Xuan and Jocelyn for SAKURA! Ate till quite full. Chatted awhile then went for a pool game. The first billard game was crap, i am playing like shit. Then we changed to pool table, and our very own YING HAO HIT A BLACK BALL IN! WOOHOO!! lol. i played much better for that. Ended the game and headed home.

16 September 2008

2008-09-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

WOOOOO!! IT IS OVER!! MUAHAHAHAHAH

Promos ended nicely and peacefully. Results are going to give me additional stress once again.

Ok. Today ended chem paper 1, my last paper. Then went with yong ping and Rongxuan to long john for lunch. Went home. Then met liqiang, clarissa and arthur outside for a shopping trip. Bought arthur's cardigan and then went back. Then met wee ching together with liqiang for movie- Babylon A.D. Not too bad. Now back home. haha.

14 September 2008

2008-09-14T12:36:00.000+08:00

Nice morning! Since i played the whole of yesterday, i shall study today.

Had physics paper on friday. I think i might just die very badly. And i failed the MCQ la. 10/25. ARGH! Then went to eat with the guys once again and had a gym session with them in the evening. THen dinner. It was cool and fun. Haha.

Yesterday stayed at home the whole day. Played NDS the whole day! WOOHOO!!

Ok. As for today. I shall start studying LATER. lol. playing seems more important for a time being.

11 September 2008

2008-09-11T22:18:00.002+08:00

Ok. Tomorrow is physics, my worst subject, and what was i doing. Lets see. I slept awhile, played NDS while and watch BLEACH! WOOHOO! i have reasons to believe that i am pretty dead, or maybe i am going a little crazy. OH YA! I also blog hopped around and found a blog asking for solutions to some sec 4 maths question. Being a very nice guy, i decided to help that poor girl a bit. Solved those questions. Well, it reminds me of days which wei jie kept owning me in maths. haha.

OK, I AM SOOO DEAD TOMORROW

11 September 2008

2008-09-11T17:18:00.001+08:00

Well, i love today's paper. Maths. It was challenging. That's why i like it. This paper is kind of fun. Made me think alot. My head was damn hot after that, but still, i like. Haha. Hoping to hit 90% as promised. So, wish me all the best.

Went to eat KFC after paper with the guys. Well, talked alot. Then went to school to "STUDY". lol. Now at home. Played till 5 plus. Going to start on physics now. I really wish to pass this subject. Passing will be nice. haha.

9 September 2008

2008-09-09T23:28:00.001+08:00

Today was chemistry paper 2. Had some expectations for it since my chem is quite stable. The paper was okok. I mean i lost a fair deal of marks, still, achieving a B is not entirely impossible yet. I just have to trust my ability in handling paper 1.

Tomorrow is chinese paper 1 and 2. Well, i am not prepared since i slept in all classes. Hoping to pass since my chinese isn't that great after all. And what am i doing now? blogging, chatting and studying physics. I really wish to promote, with the small dicks. haha.

8 September 2008

2008-09-08T21:12:00.002+08:00

First day of the war. Aaron is left with 75% lifepoints. Only first day and i feel dead ler. to make things more brilliant, i fell asleep for ALL3 PAPERS! OMG! I feel that i might not make it. Damn. Nvm, i am aaron tng, can de! Tomorrow shall be round 2, vs chemistry paper 2, which is not very friendly but... ya. I think i can win this. haha.

7 September 2008

2008-09-07T22:47:00.003+08:00

Well, tomorrow is coming in like 1 hour plus which is very bad since i am totally not prepared. ARGH! I am going for a war without little army, how to fight? How am i gonna emerge victorious. Well, i got to rely on the knowledge a gained in the past few days to win this. Please hope i will emerge victorious. Well, this is the last obstacle which separates me and JC2. I gonna walk over it. I must, or i am screwed. PLEASE LET ME PASS THIS! well, first time i am so worried about an examination cause previously, the egocentric me thinks that i am infallible, which is not a fact. I thought i can do well if i want to, but JC proved me wrong. Let me just hope my IQ will aid me in this assessment.

7 September 2008

2008-09-07T01:56:00.002+08:00

Haha, well, nice day today. Pretty great day.

Had a chat in the morning with a new and highly anticipated friend online. Haha, well, though it was short, yet it was cool. Just that it wasn't spontaneous, so didn't really go very well, but i enjoyed it.

Then studied, soon went bishan to pass acasius some stuffs. Then went pasir ris park for chewy's bbq. Was quite fun. Met clarissa and fiona first. Then bought a few stuffs for the bbq and went there. Haha, ate abit and it rained! hide in the shelter. Somehow chewy's friend dropped the butter, fiona threw the food away and i dropped my slippers while running, and ms tan wan qi laughing at me and said walking is the best. ARGH! lol. Had fun in the pavillion we were hiding in, while qi rong made many attempts to take a beautiful picture of a very photogenic praying mantis. haha. the rain stopped. We then made our back to the bbq pit for ROUND 2! sad that i couldn't join them since dad has arrived to bring me home.

Well, time for revision, no time to waste. Haven't finish anything, but since econs and Gp is on monday, shall now work on them.

5 September 2008

2008-09-05T23:14:00.003+08:00

hey bro, this is what i learnt
The end of our friendship is the beginning of it.
_______________________________________________________________________
To a special someone
I have no wish for the beginning of my love for you to be the end. Please don't let it happen

5 September 2008

2008-09-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

Today is a bad day, as expected. ARGH!

Well, tuition in the morning. Haha, saw karen and her new hair. Bangs. haha. Then walked to school to collect GP crap. Was looking for mr soh high and low in school while yp waited for me at tm to have lunch. Was late for an hour. Sorry bro. haha. Then had KFC. Went tuition and then went to pizza hut for dinner. Not too bad, just bloated.

Aaron officially enter final phase, mugger mode. abit too late, but better than nothing. haha. Time to mug. cya peeps.

4 September 2008

2008-09-04T21:09:00.002+08:00

Well, revised chem abit today. Was then distracted by Clarence tan by tempting me wth his PM about buying shirts. Haha, decided on a few designs. Also helped eileen with her maths. GOSH, maths is getting tough these days.My promise to my teacher of getting 90% seems hard to fulfil. ARGH. To add on to my troubles, i haven even started on physics, econs and gp. These 3 have the ability to cause me to retain. OMG! AARON! TIME TO WAKE UP!

Tomorrow dun seem to be a good day for me. Yea, i judged it before it even started. Things that happened to me told me tomorrow is not going to go smoothly for me. Well, i had things happening here and there. And also packs of lies told by a person i respected. ARGH! Maybe i shouldnt say if those are lies. I will know if it is tomorrow. Now i fully understood the feeling of a fren of mine when i lied. Sorry. That's all i can say. Seems like it. Tomorrow is also the birthday of some great people in my life. First of all, MY SIS (REAL SIS)! Must mention her first as we share the same blood. Happy birthday sis. Haha. Next is..... MY SIS (GOD-SIS). Haha. Da jie! HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE. Finally is.... MY EXTREMELY OLD FREN!! Chewy, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE TO U. 6 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP! Thanks girl. haha.

Well, indeed it is the birthdays of some important people in my life, yet tomorrow is not going to be too nice since i have 2 TUITIONS TO ATTEND! OMFG! I must be INSANE. I am. Tomorrow is not going to be happy for me, so why waste time emoing. STUDY! I need to manage my time well enough. It is already friday tomorrow. ARGH! AARON! JIA YOU!

Lies lies lies. FUCK OFF!!!

3 September 2008

2008-09-03T16:54:00.002+08:00

Well, once again, i am being very lazy. I noticed I seems to only study during the night. I mean day seems bad to me.

WOke up in the morning. Went beck to school for maths consultation then went for a meal with geraldine and eileen. Had a chat. OMG, i am so pissed with yu xiang. He asked me to teach him maths and i thought him my method and told him that i will not use his as it is too long and abit too complicated for me. He goes like "Ya la ya la, your maths good, people's sucks" Like wth! He asked me to teach him and he kp me for no reason. So i replied "Oi, you crazy ah? If you think you are that good, dun ask me." Idiots, wanna ask also like that. I am not gonna entertain him anymore. Added to my list of assholes. ARGH. I mean what's wrong with using my own method. His method is too completed FOR ME cuz i dun have any add maths back ground, surely i will be using my own unorthodox method and using my tuition teacher's method. DAMN HIM, spoilt my day!

Ok. Reached home. Felt lazy so wet to watch tv. Well, nice shows always make my day. haha. Then fell asleep. WTH AM I DOING! ARGH! Gonna start on chem now. I think i am pretty much prepared for maths ler.

3 September 2008

2008-09-03T01:31:00.002+08:00

YAHOO! I finally finished the work needed for tomorrow's consultation. Haha. I can see the extremely proud look on my face. haha. However, I HAVEN PREPARE ANY OTHER SUBJECT. Well, it is not like my the rest are damn good. Lets see. Chem should pass. Physics should fail. Econs hoping to pass since i dunno how will i fare. Gp should fail. Chinese sure pass. SEE!! 2 H2, 1 H1 passes!! But i am not sure if i can score above 30% for physics, GP and Econs. Haiz. Sian. Well, people, LET'S JIA YOU! And chunny, remember our pact! haha. I so love 2 september! lol

2 September

2008-09-02T20:51:00.001+08:00

Today is a great day! haha.

Well, went out with the guys and jocelyn to bedok KFC for a meal. Disturbed her here and there together with ying hao. Remember i mentioned we poisoned Ying hao twice? Well, we manage to poison jocelyn too with no 81. Usual poison no. Hmm. I think we should sought new methods to kill ying hao.

Then went to library. Tried to find a place to study, but didn't seem to work very well. So headed to ying hao's house to study. Left after while since i have tuition. Tuition was great. haha. Well, learnt quite abit. Lilin is sick. Hope she will be alright. Well, if you are reading this, BE GLAD K! Your student care! haha. Stayed back awhile after tuition and had a chat with lilin's mom, bro and Angie.

Well, ONCE AGAIN, I DID NOTHING! TOMORROW CONSULTATION LER! I MUST BE CRAZY. OMG! Ok. Shall have dinner now then MUG!

1 September 2008

2008-09-01T21:27:00.001+08:00

Well, i practically did NOTHING today again.

Went for tuition in the morning, had a fun session on some discussion of some topics. Then went to shop for some stationaries i needed and it was a futile trip, i bought almost NOTHING! Then went for a haircut then went for a jog. Went dinner and now, BLOGGING. It is just so amazing how people like me with horrible results can squander my day just like that. I mean hello? promos is coming and what have i done. I am not even prepared for maths! OMG! this sucks. AARON, YOU BETTER BUCK UP OR YOU WILL GET RETAIN! yes, i know that, and i am not allowing that to happen. NAGGY. I am just looking forward to tomorrow, gonna be a good day for me, i am hoping. Haha.

30 August 2008

2008-08-30T20:43:00.002+08:00

An update before i bury myself within my books.

Yesterday was teacher's day. Well, happy teacher's day! Went school late. Met nelson and talked abit. Then went into school LATE but not marked down. Haha. Lucky asshole i am. Then had some Muay Thai robics i think. Quite boring. Well, i saw some pretty cute people doing funny actions. Haha. Then had the teacher's day celebration in the hall. Slept throughout. Then gave presents to the teachers we were suppose to give and left school with PRCS gang. Then went central for bubble tea. Then went to PRCS. Well. Kind of glad to see alot of people there. Saw the teachers and talked quite abit. Saw juniors. Stupid cheryl, saw me, screamed! and then hit me. -.-" thanks sia. Then saw Jia wen. Talked to her quite abit and pei her walk around. Then left the school with wei jie, jm and zhong jie. Chunny and caline met up with us shortly. Talked alot. Then headed home. Tuition then dinner. Well, quite a sad dinner. haiz. shall not talk about it ler. Oh.

BON VOYAGE UNCLE! well. he will not see this. But as part of my respect for him, this is essential.

Haiz. Didn't pass the OCIP interview. SAD.

Was out the whole day with wei xing. Met up, talked ALOT. Then went suntec for comex fair. Bought a sandisk CRUZER TITANIUM and printer ink. Saw a few friends working there. Wanted to find heman, but somehow couldn't find him. Then headed to marina sq mac for a drink and went home. Roam around the net and went out for a short jog and workout. Now, TIME TO STUDY!! OMG, I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW SLACK AM I AND HOW MUCH REVISION I HAVE DONE. I DID PRACTICALLY NOTHING SO FAR!! AHH! I NEED A MIRACLE NOW! SOMEONE PLEASE GIMME 1!

29 August 2008

2008-08-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

Why am i not sleeping at this hour? Hmm. Well. WAITING FOR MY PW TO BE DONE! GRRRRR!

It was quite a ok day. Morning was abit spoilt due to rain. Spoilt some plans. Then went for pw. Juandi simply piss people off. Well. On the way, kevin, eric and i witness a car accident. Lucky asshole, his car flew into a road under construction whic prevented him from getting hit. Well. Hope that he is fine. At first, i heard a screech. I turn to look and a car flying and said "wtf". Eric kind of stunned with me and i look at him saying "ok. now what?" He gave a damn cool look and said " CALL THE POLICE LA" lol. It was supposedly to be normal to call police. No wonder he said it in such a way. Then did PW. Well. We did practically NOTHING! then cabbed down with eric to meet rx, yh n yp for gym. Did quite abit. Well, thanks to yh for teaching me how to use some equipments. haha. Then we headed to TM to get some presents for tomorrow. Met clarence yeo on the way. Kena kp by him for not jioing him out. haha. sorry dude. will make it a point to do so the next time. Then headed to the food court for dinner. Had a long chat with the guys as we talked about the future and what will happen next year. Joked alot and disturbed yh ONCE AGAIN. haha. sad boy.

28 August 2008

2008-08-28T11:35:00.002+08:00

You once said that the problems between us is so superficial compared to others. I agree. However, why do our problems look so big?

You said you gave me a chance. Well, then think carefully. When you said you give it to me, have you given up on me? If yes, then that chance is useless for you have given up.

2 weeks. Do i look like god? This time, you really overestimated me. It takes years for one to learn to be mature, yet you expect me to change in 2 weeks? What can i change? I can only change my attitude towards my friends and some other stuffs going on in my mind that's all. We didn't even communicate much. How you see the change? I don't think there is a need to tell you i have changed for you will see it yourself. You saw nothing. Not because i didn't, but you don't know. That's all.

you told me when i see a problem, tell you. when i told you, look at what happened. I apologise much that day for misinterpreting your intentions. Did you accept it? It seems like you did. But if you truly did, these 2 weeks wouldn't be like that. I made promises. But are you very sure i can fulfil them WITHIN 2 weeks? "Seeking isn't the only way to find". This is one of your gifts to me. Since i can't seek for it, i shall leave it to fate for a solution. In the time, i had to move on. I can't be stuck in the same patch of mud. I had to move on. You moved on too. You have your friends, i also have mine. You can move on with those friends, can i? I have to right?

If you have already made a decision on breaking that friendship, i know i can already do nothing about it. I kept quiet about it for the last 2 weeks. Time to say something.

27 August 2008

2008-08-27T21:06:00.002+08:00

WOOO! TOMORROW IS A HOLIDAY!! E-LEARNING! HAHA

Well. Today is pretty ok. Had an early maths lesson which learnt quite abit. Then chinese which i slept throughout and then lectures which i skipped for it was redundant. Then had physics which was horrible. Then had GP presentation. Wasn't quite a job well done considering my minimal knowledge on Zimbabwe. Shall read up more.

Well, these few days seems fine with me. Haha. Feeling great. Once again, PROMOS! lol.

25 August 2008

2008-08-25T21:08:00.002+08:00

Managed to squeeze out some time to blog abit before i bath.

Well. Today had blah blah blah. Haha. PE was fun. I mean after PE when yh and yp went to take a bath. Haha. Then had tutorials and lectures as usual. Yp, Rx and peter skipped lecture and went to sleep. Then had GP and a long maths period. Horribly sian. THen went to library to study with yu xiang and rong xuan while yp and yh do their PW. Manage to accomplish quite abit of work. Haha. Very glad. Then had dinner with the guys while we played a prank on Yh and HE FELL FOR IT. Sad boy. He almost died. Then went home with yp. Had abit of chat with him. Well, he is a nice person to talk to.

Ah. Promos approaching fast. I haven even finished revising any subjects. Ok. Time for my agenda.
I will finish maths revision by the end of this week, which is sat. Then shall start on chem from sat till tue. Then physics from tue to sat. Then sat and sun will be used for econs annd GP. Chi? errr. LUCK. well. currently that's what i need. haha. Good luck to seniors for their prelims and coming A levels, to poly for their i don't what assessment and JC1 FOR PROMOS!!! WOO!!

23 August 2008

2008-08-23T00:51:00.002+08:00

STRESS!!!

Well. Promos are coming in like 2 WEEK?!?!?! OMG! I noticed i am so not prepared for it. I mean, i wouldn't rule out the possibility of me retaining, but still, time to work hard. Here are my goals:

General Paper: E (well, hoping to pass, anything better than an E is like a bonus to me)

Econs : D (started to understand concepts, hoping to pass beautifully)

Chinese : D (Yep, very bad, i know. However, considering how slack i was during chinese, this grade is very good ler)

Maths : A (maintain PLEASE!!!! the only subject that CAN MAKE IT so far)

Chem : B (I want an improvement. I can't maintain a C!)

Physics : >30% (well, that's enough, considering how much i hated the subject and how i slacked for it. Gonna start studying hard!)

Well, these are my desired grades. AH! Please let me get, i gonna work hard from tomorrow. Sad to say, there is still PW! AH! I am the leader, and it is very stressful when people like Juandi REFUSE to hand in his research. ARGH! Gotta cover up for him. Shall deal with him soon. Maybe i should deal with him like how i dealt with *AHEM KE.. AHEM* and *AHEM JE...Y AHEM*. Haha. Sad people.

20 August 2008

2008-08-20T23:09:00.002+08:00

Ok. Today seems pretty fine. Haha.

Well, had lessons as usual. Oh! yesterday had chem SPA. I thought it was ok. Then had econs, FREE PERIOD! haha. well. then had chinese. JJ made us watch a movie which was like a lullaby to everyone. Even JJ also fell asleep. Then had consultation for PW, not very well done. Then went band room to repair stuffs. The speakers WORKED!! lol. I feel that if i ever quit school, engineering sounds cool to me. haha.

Today had physics SPA. Was pretty bad i guess. Not very sure how well i did. Then went to study with vincent, jermyn, yan ting n christabel. Well, petty fun and cool. Then had dinner with gek teng. Haha.

18 August 2008

2008-08-18T19:32:00.006+08:00

Busy busy busy. Promos in 3 or 2 weeks time. can't remember ler. Well, busy studying and with alot of stuffs these few days so didn't really had the time to update. Even if i had, well, too lazy. haha

Ok. yesterday was fiona's birthday BBQ. It was pretty great. Saw old friends like qirong, qiu hui, helena, jing zhe, chunny. I really miss them alot. I always thought there were just any friends i knew. but they wasnt. They are closer to me than almost anyone else. AHHH. i miss u all!! haha. Fiona, i didnt put your name cause i see you everyday. Haha. You are still undeniably one of my closest friend.

Well. I met pretty great friends these few days, like a gek teng who pei me for supper when i feel like it. haha.

Well. School is kind of tiring these few days. Clarence and i slept in maths class and didnt woke up till he had a bad dream which woke him up and then he woke me up. Then stayed in school to do abit of econs. Well, kind of unsuccessful. Was too tired and didn't have the motivation of work. Promos soon. How to pass with such attitude sia. I am soo dead.

Well, promised a junior to feature her in my blog. Hey TOMATO!! I miss you real lot dude. haha. stay happy and pretty as always and chat with me often for i am usually quite bored. haha. stay RED too. haha. and dun always make ERRORS!

i miss you, my friend.

14 August 2008

2008-08-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA!! HAHA

13 August 2008

2008-08-13T23:42:00.002+08:00

Haiz. Finally reached home after a long day.

Went to school. Wasn't exactly a brilliant day. well. shall not talk much about it. then went to the band room to get my mouthpiece. Then had fun with clarence and gek teng.

Ok. then went home. Changed and went to visit jerome. Haha. U finally woke up from your sleep bro. Dunno if u ever read your blog but thanks for today. Well. At least the very fact that you are sick and yet still spent time talking to me and making me understand some things really touched me. Bro, i just wanan tell you, thanks alot. Recover soon. We will go have fun after my promos someday.

Ok. Then went out with fiona, qirong, qiu hui, jing zhe and joey. Went eighteen chef to eat. Quite ok food with a good ambience. Was damn full. Haha. Then had a cake for fiona. Then went to somewhere near her condo till dad fetch me home. It was fun. I miss you peeps. haha.

Well. After today, i learnt alot after so much happened. I mean the talk with jerome really allowed me to think thru alot. Bro. If u need anything, tell me. I will get it done. I owe u this favour. And also to this best sister of mine. sorry dude. it was my fault. i understand my attitude towards u was horrible. sorry. well. i will change. i will. trust me one more time. i will not disappoint u or hurt u ever again.

12 August 2008

2008-08-12T21:49:00.003+08:00

Well. I am damn tired today. AHHH

Ok. I took a 3 hours afternoon nap which cause some sort of insomia to me at night. Ended up flipping in my bed for 2 hours and fell asleep at approximately 3am. Have been damn tired the whole day and slept alot. Planned to study chem, but slept too much. Then had interview for OCIP. I thought i did alright. Then had chem test. I have a feeling i screwed it up big time. Passing shouldn't be a problem unless there are so many concepts which i thought i knew yet i didn't, then i am dead. But i doubt that will happen ba. Well, hoping for a B. Pray pray.

Olympics was great. I have been like addicted to it for the past few days. Was watching male basketball just now during dinner. Haha. I doubt i can do any work ler. Maybe we should tell our teachers that olympics is once in four years so we should concentrate on it. Very important. This year esp since many world records are bring broken. Haha. Excited!

Well. Tomorrow is my last band prac. Irritating. I mean, it is so dumb. We were suppose to end at end of august. I dun really understand why we end so soon. Nevermind. Time to get over it and move on.

Well. A message to a good friend. Hey girl. You look gorgeous in that dress. Well. Work hard for your a levels and i shall chat with you after that. Jia you!

11 August 2008

2008-08-11T10:10:00.002+08:00

Well, an early in the morning update seems like a good idea to me before i start my busy day.

Ok. Thanks friend for peiing me last night to emo and listening to my woes. Haha.

Tuition is starting in 45 mins. Reached home got to CHIONG 8 ECONS essay. Die ler la. Still got chem fac test to study. Doubt i will have the time to do soo many work ba. Nvm la. Die die la. Not like i didn't die before. Haiz. Someone save me!!

10 August 2008

2008-08-10T21:11:00.002+08:00

Well, since i am quite free, i shall blog then.

Today is a pretty boring day. Wanted to go out study, didn't in the end. So quite sian. Wanted to meet yp and yh to study. In the end, lost the mood to study ler. That's why i am blogging. Wanted to start on econs. Lost the mood. Damn. I am getting irritated.

Had a long chat last. Pretty tired in the morning. Watched olympic games the whole day. Wanted to chat with someone. Couldn't find any. Either i can't reach them, or they are busy, or they dun give a damn about me. Haiz. Nvm. I was prepared to live a boring day today. So it didn't really matter much. Or maybe, it is just too troublesome to bother so much ba. "too troublesome" is my catch phrase previously. Abandoned it when i entered jc. Shall use it back ba, considering the fact there are really not many people out there that are worthy for my concern. They are like burdens. I should get out of my self induced depression and care less, care for people worthy of it, and care for those who needs it. The rest, too troublesome.

I told a friend last night to look at things from a different perspective to be happy. Well, friend, i told you for the sake of saying only. I haven't really succeeded in doing that. I, just like you, have the tendency to look at the bad sides nowadays. Trying to look at the good side to be happy, but sometimes i can't find any. Hope that you will be happy, my friend.

9 August 2008

2008-08-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

Haha. NDP parade was pretty well done this year, though i feel it was like shit after looking the olympics opening ceremony. It is pretty since this is the first year i am not watching the parade at home, and first time not with my family. Went to visit jerome just now. Watch the parade with him. Hey bro, open your eyes soon k? I recorded it down in case you didnt manage to watch it when you are in your lala land. Stay safe bro. I miss you a hell lot. Let's fight each other like old times k? that's a pact between both of us.

These few days was pretty good. I told gek teng that i had a bad premonition. Well, i decided not to think of that ler. It is so dumb worrying over things that might happen 20 years later. Stupid right? Well, i didn't study alot. I mean, i learnt to take things easier these few days. The new new new aaron seems better. Hahax. I learnt to let things go alot. I also learnt to look at things from different perspective. Well, i taught eileen that just now. Hahax.

Shall not blog much. I guess i need a rest. Pretty tired. Tomorrow got to start working. Well, resting must stop on sunday. Tuition on monday. Had to work ler! WOOO!

3 August 2008

2008-08-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

Well. Pretty good day. Sorted my thoughts and everything out.

Ok. Spent the day watching dragonball. Lol. Then did some maths and Dragonball again. Then went out to get a new earpiece and then did some of WR. Yep. That's all. lol..

3 August 2008

2008-08-03T02:49:00.001+08:00

Everything seems so great. wonder if we can stay on like this. we can. i am sure.

3 August 2008

2008-08-03T00:38:00.006+08:00

Hahax. Today was great.

Ok. Had tuition early in the morning. OMG! My differentiation SUCKS. Then had a haircut and went over to changi airport to meet the group for PW. Well, did a fair bit. Shall do whatever i have to do tomorrow since i am pretty tired.

Ok. Then met rong xuan, yong ping and ying hao for dinner. Headed to marina sq for steamboat. It was damn full la. Had great fun. Talked alot and ate alot. Lol. We added some "special ingredients" to yinghao's choc fondue. MUAHAHAHAHAH. Sad boy. He ate it all up without knowing and we told him after the bill. Then went to meet teng teng. Ate with her and sent her home. Well, the day is good! hahax. Here are some pics for your enjoy.

1 August 2008

2008-08-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

Well. It's the beginning of a new month. Ok. My august's goal

1) SAVE $$$ for the upcoming september. Going to be broke. Hell lot of present to buy for the 9th sep babies. My blood sis, jie and qiu hui i think. Die ler la. Still got other people de. SIANZ

2) Design a band t-shirt for the school band

3) Spend more time studying for promos. planning to do well. HAHA

4) build a stronger rapport with the small dicks in my class.

5) Learn something and give up something. shall not say what.

Well. That's all. AHH!! school's NDP coming soon. Got to play captain ball and soccer. Lol. SIANZZ.

Haha. I feel so glad. I made pretty good friends these few days. Wei xing and jermyn are people that don't have to mention ler. They are the closest bunch of bastards i have. Ok. New and cool friends. Teng teng, trivia, liying, rong xuan, yongping, yinghao. Haha. Cool people. Thanks for being there for me when i am emoing. Haha.

31 July 2008

2008-07-31T23:42:00.002+08:00

Well. This is my 150th post. I took 2 years for 100 post and a few months for 50. WTF.

Today was alright i guess. I mean pretty normal day, except the fact that my PW group pissed me somehow. Never mind. Haha. Then we wrote a story of ying hao. it was damn cool la! had physics test. Horrible! then had econs, horrible!

Anyway, wish to thank a few people. Thanks to ying hao, rong xuan and teng teng for listening to me throughout the night. hahax. was feeling down. thanks to them, mood up! thanks.

well. HAPPY 150TH POST TO ME!!!

29 July 2008

2008-07-29T20:28:00.003+08:00

Hahahaha. What an irony. I was just saying that god loves me so hee/she gave me such a wonderful camp to make me happy. Just as i end that, today is the beginning of the normal life i had. FUCK IT. I HAD ENOUGH! DAMN

It is just plain dumb. Ok. Today had morning run. Then had some CME crap. Then had chem SPA. Well. I did pretty well, according to Mr Yong. Then had GP. Awake the whole lesson to listen. Then had econs=free period. Anthony goh and toyyib left, and no new teacher came in. So it is like a free period. Then break, had chi, where i talked alot to xi ling. Then had PW. Well, my group is hopefully on task. Shall push them pretty soon. Chatted with Rong Xuan for some time. His life is really fun and cool. haha

Today sucks. I mean well, i lost my cool somehow. typed some long paragrapgh just now. decided not to have it post.

haiz. sometimes i asked myself. why am i always down and other aren't. maybe the problem does really lies on me, not others. yep. it is just me. it is my mind that ade me to upset over every single crap. why can't i exercise more self control on these types of things. i previously scolded someone on why does she blame EVERYTHING but herself on things that happened. and now i m doing that. wow.

i learned in LTC that my actions made what am i today. blaming is being irresposible. yep. that is what is going on. i am being very irresposible to blame everyone for the plight i am in today. i shall try to stop that in future.

27 July 2008

2008-07-27T16:14:00.003+08:00

Well, maybe god just loves me and pity me. Since i had such bad times previously, now it is time for a break. So, they gave me pretty happy times.

Ok. Went to MJC for a bad concert on thursday with acasius, joleen, rachelle, her mom and trivia. The japanese band they invited was amazing. It seriously reflected on how bad is Singapore bands. Haiz. Then met wei jie to collect some stuffs and went home to pack my bag.

Had school once again on friday. They had leadership camp. I was very relunctant to go at first. Yet, it proved to be an amazing experience. I swear i will regret it if i didn't go. Shall talk about the camp for now.

25 July 2008
Arrived at campsite. It was raining, yet it is a beautiful place. Went to the dorm to place our bags and assemble with our groups. Had briefings. It was all so hostile. We had our first game, some funny game. Christopher was our leader for that game. He is very good. Hahax. He proved to be a capable leader. Then had to do some reflections on our actions with our facilitator, Xin Yan. She is a nice lady. Then had to set up goals and visions. It was pretty fun. Actually i don't remember what happened very well. Oh! we had tug of war. Well, at first we didnt do well. We were at 1 point when other had 3 points. Then dickson, our leader for that activity, encouraged us all the way and we CHIONG!!! and we hit 3 points. Though we lost, yet we did our best. Jacky, christopher, Pranesh, Dickson, Glenn and i pulled till our hand hurt like hell. Hahax. Had dinner, bathed and slept early. Oh. We had beds for our camp. Jealous? hahax.

26 July 2008
Ok. Woke up early in the morning thanks to edmond. Had morning exercise organised by Lai-9 i think. It was ok. Then had to go to school of belay to learning belaying. Well, i am already trained in it. So it was pretty redundant. Then had our high elements. We didnt win, yet all tried our best. I did some swinging wodden thingy. Scary, yet overcomed. Hand cramped badly after that. Then glenn took a pretty long time at the elements. Yet he finished 1 and gave up 1. Well done glenn. We all saw you did your best so stop blaming yourself. I was very impressed by hui yi. She was doing some tube thingy. The logic is that once you sit, you can't stand ler. Yet the game is only won if you stand. She sat down. And with huge encouragement and will power, she stood up and overcome the challenge. Oh ya. For this, our leader is gek teng. Well doen girl. You do the high elements like monkey. Gek teng does her high elements like nothing. Seriously. Hang her on the top of DBS building, she will probably go like "this height nia? any higher?" Lol. Though we lost, yet we saw the best our team did. Xin yan cried for us. We were shocked and promise her we will WIN! Then we changed and prepare to go for dinner. That night, dinner was outside. School sponsered $3.50 per person. I was in the same table as Glenn, Pranesh, Hui yi, Raihan and Hui chin. Ate alot and talked. Then went back for briefing. Then hui yi was our leader for penal. She won. Hahax. Thanks girl. The guys then did TAU POK on nathan daniel, dickson and god knows who else. They crushed dickson's bed. Christopher was like shaking his head and said "every action have its consequences" Hahax. Nice one dude

27 July 2008
Well. It is the day. Christopher woke me up early in the morning. Packed up and went over for morning exercise. Team malek forever led us in it. Had fun. We played catching. Well. Christopher was once again our leader and he have to catch us. Who the hell can run faster than him? I don't know. All got caught except for Glenn and dickson, who hide around. Then had to prepare for the enxt activity. This time i m the leader. Well. It was a cool game. Manage to WIN. See xin yan, we didnt lie. We promised we would win and we did. Yours tears ain't for nothing. Hahax. We then had some DISCO time and clean up. Talked abit. Bid farewell. And left for home

Reflections
I thought is was pretty redundant to do reflections. Yet, it is important. shall explain why now.

Seriously, during the camp, there were different aaron. In the beginning, it is the typical JC aaron you see. They thought i was a quiet person, yet i was not. It is just that there was nothing to talk, why talk. that was what i was thinking. Yet, as the activity moved on, i start to change. During a session when we have to rank our members the top 3 and last 3, our facilitator, Xin yan, ranked me third last. It was due to me not speaking up. Yep. I learnt to keep things to myself. Wonder if it is good. I am getting used to it ler. Gek teng ranked me third best as she was impressed with the effort i put in during tug of war. Well. During high elements, the aaron who weijie, weixing, my old friends saw came back. I was loud, enthusiastic and was fighting my way through. I had a hell lot of motivation. I saw that in me. I saw the aaron from previously. For that moment, i was afraid to change back. It is just that scary. I wanted to have this section to remind myself of this camp and that if i wanna revert to the old aaron, i can. Then i also volunteered myself to be the leader for the last activity which i will never do unless it was the old me. It was great. And they gave me full marks for being a leader. comments i received was that i am sensitive to others feeling, i know how to balance task and relationship, i get the job done, helped to keep morale up, never say die attitude. Thanks peeps. Then at the end, we had to give marbles to people we thank. The first i gave was christopher, for being a good buddy and friend. At that moment, when i thought that i am leaving these peoples, i felt like crying. i held back my tears. Then i also gave marbles to hui yi, gek teng(hu cried), pranesh, glenn and dickson. I received from Ethel, Hui yi, Hui chin, Gek teng and dickson. Hahax. Thanks. I lvoe you guys. At that moment, i hoped there will be with me longer, yet, like what our camp facilitator said, that's just an illusion. I have to return to reality. This group will and shall now DISBAND. At that moment, i woke up and returned from the perfect ideal world. Left my ideal group and started to move on in life. The camp had a very huge impact in my life. It is also a turning point in my life. Thanks Lai and Xin yan, i know how to handle things from here.

Well, i lost my voice. hahax.

Oh and 1 more thing. We had to write a journal during the camp. Though it is quite private, it thought it will be nice to type it out here for you all to read. Here goes.

My journal.
The question we were suppose to answer in our journal is: If i were to bring that level of commitment during tug of war into my leadership context and studies, what difference will i foresee?

I believe I will see success in my CCA. Though i am only a welfare head, i believe looking after my members is important. I believe i can bring the morlae of the band up and they can bond together better, With greater understanding, we can work better with each other and bring success together in the school band, probably achieving a SYF gold.

In studies, this level of commitment will being me wonderful results. I have never commet myself heavily in studies in my life. Yet, i still achived pretty good results. I know i am smart, but lack commitment. With this commitment, straight A will not be a problem.

This year, i have never been this happy. I never had this level of enthusiasm towards anything this year. Too many problems have gotten me to almsot sink to a depression. The best times i had was with my sec sch old friends. Everything was tough this year. This camp allowed me to find myself back. For that monent, i saw the old aaron tng, full of energy and vigor. I am hoping to see that again or everyday. I hope to revert to my old self.

Well. that's the end. hahax. anyway. Got to go. bye.

P.S hostility was never a problem till this year. sorry to say this, but 3 days friendship with those camp people are more precious compared to most people.

23 July 2008

2008-07-23T18:55:00.003+08:00

Well. I shall not say it is a pretty bad day.

Started off with an early morning. Asked dad to bring me to east coast park for road run and it RAINED!!! so we walked around and talked a little. the rain stopped after a long time. then had the race started. it was great. especially the boys competitive. it was so close between peter and joseph. obviously i hoped peter will win. yet, joseph was good. grats is getting 2nd peter!! rong xuan also did very well. 7th. not too bad.

then had the girls competitive. cheered for a number of my friends. seems like not much people cheer for them and it is pretty bad. hahax. ok. then had recreational run. it was fun. we cam whored and walk up and down. the last 50 m was great. let's see wad happen.

Rong xuan: dylan.. quick, faint now.
Dylan: ah ya. i m dying.
me: ALL CARRY DYLAN QUICK
everyone: jiayou dylan!
Samad: there is a cockroach
Dylan: omg. save me!!

hahax. it was fun. we carried dylan to the finishing line for fun. hahax. then went to eat katong laksa with a few people. it was great. thanks geraldine. then walked around and cabbed back home with yp and yh. then took my nap. time to start on EOM and WR. i think at most i will also do econs. too tired.

well. i seems to have the habit to write craps that went through my mind at the bottom. i shall try to do that at times ba. hahax.

we are constantly learning and changing. Is it true that someone who did badly previously will not do well? i have never believe in that. My friend. It is all up to you. I really hope to see you with us still next year. For you, my friend, is like a brother to me. I really hate to see you fall. don't giv up. you can do it! let's do this together. remember, our bet!! $50 if u lose. i am sure you wouldn't want me to win that easily. Then put up a fight.

I have been making many new friends. By now, i know which are true friends, which are just friends. True friends hurt me most. so should i have true friends? yes. yesterday, i asked a couple of friends if they need friends in life. they said yes. i asked another question. what will happen to you without friends. well. some said like that lor. some said don't know. while some said he/she will die. hahax. what's for me. let me tell you all my answer to my own question ba.

i asked such question to evaluate if a person needs friends. to me, friends are nothing. they are worthless piece of crap that simply meant nothing. yet, true friends are my life. i am willing to brave fire just to help them. these are people important in my life. well. i will die without them. i can't live without these bunch of people/faggorts. hahax. i raelly do care for these people. yet, it is just so tough. they do alot of things that upset me all the time. so. should i care about them. i have thought of this question. i cared for many. yet there is only one that truly hurt me in that process. but others did not. how can i ignore all just for 1 person. so i decided. ignore NONE. you are all my life. how can i ignore my life. true? duh. i speak logic (if you are gonna choke again, i will kill you).

i really want to know you. i seriously do. will i ever get the chance? 20 years down the road, are we still as close? i wonder. i wonder.

22 July 2008

2008-07-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

I always thought i have alot of courage. Yet, it seems like what i am lacking of is courage. It just seems so hard to tell my friend how much they suck, and how much i love them. It's tough to tell your closest friend or the girl i like "i love you". Well. I always say that to wei xing. Hahax.

Ok. Today was GREAT. And i am serious about that. let's see. we had CME. It was alright. Then had chem SPA. Nothing much still. Then had GP. It was GREAT, since ms chua was our teacher. Well. JC students are stress k. We must reduce stress by looking at pretty teachers. Hahax. Then had econs. Ended up talking, stoning and sleeping. Had chinese. Made a new friend by the name of i can't remember what. Lol. Nvm. She is a nice girl. Hahax. Ok. then did WR for PW and went to consult EOM. Die ler. My article had some prob. Had to redo EOM. SIANZZZ. nvm. shall work hard. remember my goal. STRAIGHT A's!!! WOO

The worst thing that can happen is for a person to live with regrets. Well. I made many decision till this point in time which allow me to live in regret. An advice to a friend. It is your future. Please make your own decision. Don't reject help coming for you. O levels coming soon. As yr friend, it does hurt me to see you in such a state. I hesitated leaving you, afraid you might fall into depression. Yet, i am hoping you can do well. It is already the last part. Why don't you accept a little help. I really wish you can do well. At least do well for the sake of your future. I really wish you the best. I urge you to find me if you need help. Good luck.

is closed doors that fun? why don't you ever trying opening it? for awhile and let someone inside to see who are you exactly. you never ever show. yet, i really wish to see, see what's deep inside you, see if the real you is the current you. i really wish to do that.

21 July 2008

2008-07-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

is our friendship all about work? all about studies? all about stuffs that are deemed as practical?

you only try to talk to me once or twice, and close yr door immediately. is that your definition of friendship? i tried. i seriously did.

to others, our friendship seems like a close one. however, is it really a close one? or a CLOSED one.

is all what we can talk about are gossips, studies and tiny minor problems. in your heart, am i even a friend to you? you said how much you meant to me will be how much i meant to you. is that really the case? i am having doubts. insecurities.

do u seriously even give a damn about me? i don't know how to proceed without knowing you better. i treat you like a close friend, yet i don't even know if i know you well enough to qualify for the term close friend. i tried. i seriously did.

21 July 2008

2008-07-21T20:19:00.002+08:00

I noticed I am starting to blog everyday. I am wasting so much time on this everyday. AHH. Better not waste time ler.

It was a horrible morning. I mean some times things just confuse me. I tried to show my care and concern to a member of my PW group. I mean its EOM, personal work, i don't really have to supervise or what. Yet. All i get for showing such concern is being ignored. It's just so rude for people to ignore someone who GENIUNELY care for him. And it's a GUY!! wth is wrong with him seriously. Haiz. Nvm. I decided not to care for such people. Wasting my time and energy.

Ok. sch was errr ok. I mean it's like any normal day. Maybe abit better since no one pissed me off greatly except in the morning. Hahax.

I thought that it is seriously unfair to vent my frustration in my blog. I mean it is unfair to readers. They worry for me. It is just so unfair. Ok. I am going to get a personal diary or a private blog soon. Hahax. So that i can vent my frustration there everyday. As for who have excess, only 1 person. Obviously me la.